9. Dot Point Day!

A few years back I had a friend who encouraged me to join the creative writing group she was in on Facebook. They were running a workshop of sorts and it was encouraged we post five dot points every day. 

They could be as simple or involved as we felt, just as long as we posted them. I really enjoyed that. It was the first time my friend had seen me let go and really use words as a deeper expression – possibly even the first time I’d shared that part of myself with others. She said “Harmony don’t you ever try to tell me you’re not a writer ever again!” and here I am, finally digging my heels into the discomfort until I own that title without cringing. Better late than never.

Today, and I’m sure there’ll be many similar days that follow, I don’t have anything specific to say. I mean I could, but I’m feeling too vulnerable and sick of hearing myself talk to go into it. 

So today shall be the first of the dot point days! 

1. I wish I could tell you the story that’s really on my mind. It’s juicy, and it takes up more space in my thoughts than I care to admit. 
2. I just realised I’ve been in my job for six months! Not quite sure how I feel about the fact that this is an exciting accomplishment for me. 
3. There are at least four things I probably *definitely* shouldn’t have said today. Not too bad as far as chronic impropriety goes. 
4. It is equal parts fascinating and infuriating that I’m experiencing such resistance against this project of mine. 
5. I feel like this is not good enough. Which I’m aware is ridiculous, as there are literally no KPIs on this shit other than getting it done. And how can I possibly fail at something that has no indication of success? I suppose this feeling right here is the reason I’m doing it. Joys of rebelling against the comfort zone. 

Note to self: creativity endorphins do not replace sleep. Rebel against the comfort zone at a reasonable hour some time dickhead.